Greatful

I always thought of myself as an optimist. Tomorrow will always be better than today. The main reason for this was my deep seated trust in God. He's the driver of my life, and therefore I had nothing to worry about.

Late this year, however, I felt totally abandoned by God, because none of what I had planed worked out at the time. Trauma cannot explain me feeling of disappointment I felt when my plans fell through! Is it a punishment for who I am? Why did I waste my energy trusting and hoping. Why wasn't I forewarned that I'm wasting my time. And slipped into a depression. Why not just die?

But yesterday as I walked home from work, wallowing in my sorrow, a thought came to me. Why aren't I giving thanks for what is actually going right in my life? Why curse God when things go haywire? Why not keep trusting as I always have?

You win some, you lose some. That’s life. The only constant that I have is that God remains the same. He sees the whole picture, and I'm only seeing now. If He says that he will prosper me, who am I to doubt that? So far I have no reason to complain. A good job, fabulous friends, loving family and I'm healthy. For that I will thank God.

' In everything give thanks : for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus to you. 1 Thes 5:18'