What a choice!

Choice consists of the mental process of thinking involved with the process of judging the merits of multiple options and selecting one of them for action.

The biggest argument for homophobia is the aspect of choice. That men or women choose to have same gender sexual relationships. Homophobes cannot comprehend why someone would choose to engage in what they perceive to be unnatural. This argument invariably implies that strait people have chosen NOT to be same gender loving.

Today I had 3 very beautiful women in my company. They had it all! Great legs, big booty, hot rack, and very sensual in their talk. I am single, and haven’t had some in a long, long time. All I had to do was to pencil them in and I would have my itch satisfied! But I do not have the sexual appetite for them. And so once again I have to go to bed alone. Is that fair? Why would I choose to have a lonely night when there are willing damsels to satisfy me all night? Why do I look at men and I’m instantly full of lust, but women have no effect where it matters?

If sleeping with women is a matter of choice, then I should be at least be aroused by them, and then, based on the definition of choice, I should look at the pros of sleeping with men against women, and then decide on one. Clearly this is not the case for me. Just like a strait man will not look at a man lustfully, then won’t I look at women lustfully. This is not a matter of choosing, rather of disposition/orientation. North & South!

Truth be told, I did try at one time to stop looking at men lustfully, and to try looking at women with sexual thoughts. I had vowed to have sex with a women, and I’d found one. But couldn’t do it. And that lasted a week. Now that would have been a choice.

And therefore, I will not fight what I am; I will just be the best of who I am.