Heart breakers

There is a breed of men that i find dangerous to interact with. And i was with one of them yesterday.

They are extremely good looking, great physique, very successful, intelligent, witty, and are just fun to be around. What makes them dangerous is that they are not outrightly homo, or probably aren't, but will always give me attention and throw the occasional flirt and sexy glance that my heart just melts away, and they are married!

They clearly fulfill every fantasy that i'd have of a man, and the uncertainty of their gestures fuel the fantasies even more, but i'd rather not push the limits of how far they can go. It would actually be a turn off should the actually respond to any of my physical advances.

So our conversations will end at where we've met, definitely in the company of others, and certainly no followup texts or phone calls. And the furthest we'll ever go will be in my dreams, every night :)

Day In

I've had a day that i've not had in, well years I suppose. Sasha's and mates day in.

It was a fabulous time! I'd really missed it. We spent time cooking a delicious two course meal, cracked open a bottle of fine red spanish wine and just bonded all afternoon all.

We used to do this back in the day quite often, but the hustle and bustle of a career life has rendered us so busy that the only time we have, we just lie back and watch tv.

Nothing beats preparing and sharing a meal with loved ones. Its not so much the process, but the time spent in sharing an activity. The unwinding from the stress of every day life and for a moment, not having a care in the world. The afternoon seemed to have frozen in time.

I really need to take a break from all the cares of life and enjoy the finer things in life. As someone once said, to stop and smell a flower.

Taking myself out

This evening i looked at myself in the mirror and said 'and who are you stranger? Looking mighty sexy! Can i take you out?' Not that i cannot get a date(s), but its been a while since I let my hair down, and went on a care free night out.

The nice thing about treating myself to a fab evening is that i get to enjoy all by myself the fruits of my labour. I can move from club to club when I want to, and I can have an early night or a late night he i want to. I will get to meet new people, get a fresh perspective on life and maybe even get useful contacts! Ok maybe i'll even meet a flirt project for the night. And above all, i will get time to know me.

So i will take a long nice bath, put on that wild ensemble, wear the muskiest perfume and accessorise. I will go to a fancy restaurant for dinner, yea table for 1, and later on drinking and dancing.

And yes i'll return home alone. This is my night.